04.29.2005

So much green so many roses all the rain all the clouds all the light the sky
Where is the anecdote in the world of eye candy?

A myth predicts the heart in stories it preserves
Distance comes into view, rationality rushes out to claim it

Analogy of language: this cloud resembles others we've known
Analogy of mind: the carpet is cleaned but the old stains return

Tabula Rasa? Anonymity was never in the cards
Prediction separates science from art

Time is never interrupted
Thoughts are never complete

04.28.2005

Dance w/Death: step over her grave, step back, over again & back (silence)
Whoever the I was in me became some other watching a newfound who

Shambles shambles shambles shambles shambles shambles — ramble on
It turns out all life might be lyric and articulate, we stammer to connect

The hammer and sickle of love rebuild joy
The juice of rejuvenation flows into solitude

Why, Lord, do I see red when I've always got the blues?
Circular: I can't go on; I must go on (your witness Mr. B)

04.27.2005

"He made contact at the sweet spot and really ripped it"
"Parents always sway that way, you must have children"

The imagination must be stretched — again and again and again and again
If they feel her death as a physical, not only emotional, loss, it makes sense

The whole known world exists only in each separate mind
A, E, I and all the vowels bask in the glow of moral decay

04.26.2005

Downhill to work mornings, bay to the right, south straight-ahead, 130 mpg
Uphill coming home, silver waves & Golden Gate on the left, must downshift

04.25.2005

Spring storm (fierce color, cruising light) sisterhood of wings, unleaving wind
Around stand hills in sunset, holding windows walls and gardens up to glow

04.24.2005

Our reward is in the genius of the place, not something from afar
Things that won't take no for an answer gather in the dark

Big ark of daylight sails in and out of clouds
Chaos of time retreats as sprinklers spray and faithful pray

04.23.2005

Rock 'n roll; in-n-out; tongue-and-groove
Love the whole body of the world, every chance a choice

04.22.2005

Best poet alive: Death; beauty's the worst reader, & best; best poem: things
Poem: rainwet ledges where sun don't go; the places a tongue loves to tread

04.21.2005

Zeus (juice?), coppery lightning, footfall and dance, beginning
Before you begin, let things be themselves — at least try

What's at work and working where you see your work beginning?
Disclose that thing she did that took us by surprise

04.20.2005

Bceusae hte mnid cmpeolets eht wrod u can raed tihs
Cogito ergo morte

The darkness drew a line
The vowels egged me on

Spanish rain vanished
Bells spangled hills

Spanglish peppers the flats y El Norte returns to la casa
What is "Paradise" (Dickinson asks) Maybe "Eden" a'n't so lonesome

A flurry of flirts wordlessly augments conversation
His mind clung to a monogamous phonics

Of all the squirrels, it's the squirreliest
Unlike Doc, Nurse is soft, hygienic and safe

People don't know the size of a portion
A situation gave rise to a baffled hunger

Blunt flesh; fresh rose
Blunt rose; fresh flesh

Word made flesh, eat your meat
World made fresh, make your peace

My fortune's made of words, and my exile
We'll do what words suggest—we won't even realize it

We are shown many deaths but live just one
A loud cloud stalls over outer bay waters

04.19.2005

The words are occluding examples
The marriage of instinct and technique

A line is a way
Set limits to move on

04.18.2005

Misread vanish as varnish and saw shine in absence
Galvanized, absence is nailed through the middle

04.17.2005

Absence is axis, around which the mind spins
Because so much depends on absence, inquiry is limitless

04.16.2005

Words are conjunctions, the germ of infinity
Time circles as eternity spins on its axis

04.15.2005

Words don't illuminate they occupy absence
Life comes and goes; time goes and goes

04.14.2005

Every word promises something it cannot deliver
Each word reveals something it does not intend

Bipolar: words to cover emptiness & words to light experience
Being there: can't stop but must check where you're headed

04.13.2005

To make an image that cannot be removed, reserved or reused
When one is prone to exaggerate, what will make the true suffice

04.12.2005

It has only a little surface — but no place that does not see into you
It is a mistake to prioritize experience over imagination — Clayton Eshelman

04.11.2005

Fire & air: the luminous and lucible tease toward eternity
Earth & water: dampness and dark call you down to rest

04.10.2005

Because all the conditions are met for a thing to happen doesn't mean it will
Because everyday is the end times, everyone is always about to go it alone

How do you say what can't be said?
O child, how do you say good-bye?

04.09.2005

Movement is infinity which failed — Brenda Hillman
The limits of the actual are set some thoughts further off — Thoreau

04.08.2005

The west wind blows from ten thousand miles — Tu Fu
Misheard obscenity as infinity . . . in this oblivious world

There are no trials inside the Gates of Eden — Dylan
Doe at the garden gate, lost from the herd, seeking its fellows — Tu Fu

04.07.2005

Stain shaped like a foot-long frog swims on the concrete floor
Big, sliced-in-half tomato packed with little, reddish lungs

Spain, shaped like a brown walnut (like a skull?), desires a heart of rain
They tongue & tongue the liturgy as a new world strains under silver altars

The mudslide of 3 a.m. thoughts rumbles through the pulsing, dark blood
Let me pass! Let it stop! Let the car-wreck of choice not ooze blue snakes

Not a native speaker, she mistook hot-rod for a sexual vulgate
They know they go to the mud of numbers and laws — Lorca

04.06.2005

Moonlight woke me in a redeemable darkness
Water cooled me down to time's eternal rhythm

Anaphoric lyrics in the fat loins of air tone-down the angels
Re-cognize re-think re-visit re-veal re-spect & eat the world

04.05.2005

"Infinity" was incorporated, and the science of meaning collapsed
He drove off in his Infiniti FX, headed south, toward the freeway

The "real" infinity is never encountered, not even a little
Lament: God is dead, and all we got is this shitty infinity

You're bluffing, I'll see your eternity, and bump you two infinities
Where some saw truth, others saw only abstraction — Camus

Inside the museums, Infinity goes up on trial
Voices echo this is what salvation must be like after a while — Dylan

Infinity spit you out and refused you
You are condemned to choose and die

04.04.2005

Eternity wants people, infinity's just cloned numbers
Infinity's sterile parallels; eternity's turns & trumps & spawn

04.03.2005

Construction site's chain-link fence grown through by purple lupine
Last year's shriveled apples on the branch with this year's blossoms

Love is trouble
Hate throws in the towel

Stamina won't make it
Tongues can't say it

A rubber band holds secrets together
Among the things a heart compares with is a drawer

One monument rubs it in, another asks forgiveness
A believer never refuses the soul's private counsel

Numbers enabled the system
Thinking nourished the insurrection

Thinking was like bushwhacking
Looking was easy, but seeing needed luck & discipline

Let me love what dawn destroys
We never settle for mere understanding

04.02.2005

Life gets confused with meaning
My heart leaps when icons vanish

The flames of art frame its fluctuation
Rapture wrecks havoc with words

Style evangelizes
Fundamentalists despise

Mysteries demand explanation
Birds delight an audience

A crate of hammers is thoughtless and dangerous
Concrete flakes & chips, but smells stable in summer heat

The jungle is alive and quick and endangered
Jungle vinca in the purple undergrowth helped him fall in love